Skip to main content

||Labels..

Image result for labels are for filing quote


'Introvert!'
'She's not much of a people person.'
'He's weird.'
'Annoying.'
'Perfect!'

How dare you?
How dare you limit an entire person, his whole life, her complete individuality to a single word?
How do you describe a person you have barely, superficially known for only a chunk of his lifetime in a few, simple words?
Is this why we have eulogies? To make up for all the limiting things we say about people when they're alive. Is it a way to apologise for trying to put down a number on the distance between their being and the horizon? Are we trying to make up for the infinite possibility in them that we carelessly ignore?

'How would you describe your personality?'
'I'm lazy. I prefer pulling up my blanket to turning off the fan 'cause the switch isn't an arm's length away. I put down books when I don't love them anymore because they remind me of how my preferences change.'
'I'm quiet. I'm a book and coffee person when it's raining outside. But I'm loud with a glass of scotch and my favourite people around. I'm annoyed with strangers who pretend to know me.'
'I'm a coffee person. I'm also a chaha lover.'
'As a kid, I liked both Harry Potter and Twilight. At the same time. Hey, don't judge!'
'I think I'm funny. I also think I'm eloquent. But sometimes, when I'm with someone I like, I tend to speak in incoherent sentences. I'm clumsy and think I should've been given eight feet like an octopus to balance myself better.'
'I can't sleep with the lights off. I'm afraid of the dark. But I think the most honest conversations happen in the dark.'
'Nothing good happens after 2 am. So I make my most reckless decisions post 2 am, drunk.'
'I like talking to people who have similar opinions like mine. I also like talking to those who don't so I can understand where they're coming from. But sometimes, I don't feel like talking at all.'
'I hate to travel. Yes, that is possible too.'
'I like to write. If I can't explain something to you, remind me to write.'
'I like balconies. With cigarettes. With plants. With books. I like saving that fallen jasmine under my pillow so I can smell it in the morning. I keep a marker in my desk drawer so I can smell it and feel like I'm five again. I ate chalk as a kid. And ten years later.'

I'm so many things and yet none of them. The facets to my personality are innumerable, uncountable, insurmountable. So don't try to limit all that I am into a single word or a few. Sit. Talk. Let me write to you. Let me explain why I think the rains suck and why I wouldn't buy anything but a yellow umbrella and how I think Robin did not deserve the blue french horn. See through my eyes why Michael Scott was an exceptional boss even though he was intolerable. Understand why words mean so much. But also, let me explain why they're always too little too late.

Comments

Post a Comment

What do you think?

Popular posts from this blog

||Tell me why..

He nudged her to bring her out of her reverie. She was lost again, zoned out, overthinking. "Penny for  your thoughts? Or do you want it to be punny?" She laughed in that way she only laughed with him and broke out of her spell. It was easy being around him, effortless. It didn't matter what she had to do to be near him or how many intolerable yet genius puns she had to endure to hear him giggle at his own damn jokes. Maybe that's exactly why she couldn't describe what about him made her happy. She had been asked that often, a lot, really. And she couldn't figure out how anybody who knew him even the tiniest bit couldn't understand it. It felt natural for her to gravitate towards him because he was it. Not in the epic love story and grand gestures way but just the I-can-just-be-myself-around-you-and-you-put-me-at-ease way. She was wound up and every year of her life and every incident that came along with it had built her up a nice, cosy layered wall tha...

Welcome to this stupid post

  It has been a year and a half since I last wrote anything, well, significant. (Coincidentally, also the exact age of my dog.) So I figured it was time to get out all the stupid. Here goes nothing. He’s twenty eight, almost twenty nine. January has always been a difficult month, it’s been the month of departures in his life. Most people are excited about the hope January brings with it, he’s terrifyingly cautious of the signs it brings - of people leaving, of things changing, and basically everything going to shit. His fears are not unfounded, he’s not a vague person like that. He’s seen things happen, he’s felt things hurt and he’s experienced darkness in its complete, mystifying totality. People think he's naïve, his problems self-made but tell that to the spiraling tornado in his head that won't quit screaming. Fast forward to two years later, it's his thirtieth birthday eve. He grew up celebrating and anticipating this month, now he plans to sleep well before midnight....

||Friends? Sure..

I woke up this morning thinking about writing this post because I couldn’t fathom how one year we were going crazy with friendship bands, everything was simpler, love was friendship, movies were influential and then I wake up today and it’s a pretty normal day. Also I wanted to try out my cute new keyboard which otherwise seems like money not so pragmatically spent. I wanted to reminisce a little bit about all the different kinds of friends I’ve had over the years. The one you rang first on the landline every time you got the tiniest bit of gossip. The one you went running around the school playground with, jumping off corridors as your fancy birthday dress flew up in frilly cuteness. The one you spent hours with coming up with numbers to cryptic-name your multiple crushes/persons of interest. The same one you found sitting on the first bench after assembly, new to school but so old and wise beyond her age (still). The ones you keep thinking you’ve said goodbye to but they keep coming ...