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||Out of Patience..



Its been a long, long time since I last wrote and believe me I've had my reasons. Its been a really stressful time and it has completely drained me of all the patience I had. For the last few months, everything that I've wanted has had waiting as a prerequisite. Although it sounds pretty mainstream, patience is not an easily acquired trait. Waiting for long hours, days and nights, months at large.. just to get one glimpse of what you want, just to get that one shimmering, glittering smile on your face. The end result sure is mesmerising but the process it takes you through can be really testing.

Now that I have the one thing I've wanted for a really long time, and my path ahead looks a little bit clearer, I can't help but wonder how getting the mother of all stresses off my mind might also be a dreadful thing. Since the last couple of days, my mind has been really, really hard to restrain. I'm a rebel in my truest form. I do what I'm told not to, I do what I know I shouldn't. I feel something so right by doing the wrong thing, I feel something so wrong by doing the right thing. So obviously, when I don't have something extremely important weighing me down, my mind wanders and I end up getting pulled towards the "Dont's" instead of the "Do's".

This time, I don't even have the willpower to resist. Its been a long time since I last had a free fall. Guess its time to let go again. :)

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