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||The nagging reminder..



Ever been in a situation where the most trivial things hijack your brain? Its like you go on and on thinking throughout the day about things and/or people that shouldn't matter. Its like you see a face that reminds you of something, or of someone who meant a lot and now that everything's different.. Well there are times in one's life, there are phases when one learns to hate, hate with all their heart, hate people who didn't even do him/her wrong. 

There's just something about that innocent face, you cannot hate it but you still do, due to reasons unknown. That one face in your life that means nothing to you yet signifies so much. That face you cannot behold, for if you do, everything that was begins to haunt you. At times you also feel guilty for feeling so deeply negative about that person, who has played no part in your misery. But just the fact that his/her face is somehow linked to the cause of your misery makes it unbearable. It doesn't mean you're weak, and it doesn't mean you can't face your fears. All it means is that you're human.



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