Nostalgia Engulfed...

Well, I hope so. I have been chanting this for a long time now but I can never go through with it. And I'm not sure but maybe its because I don't want to. Everyday is another puzzle piece. Not seeing you makes me anxious. Seeing you makes me take an involuntary about turn. By now, I'm an obvious mess. I'm too deep in my own misery yet I can't see that crease on your forehead without getting antsy. There are days I want to block you out of my mind, and then there are other days where I'm tired enough to just give up. Its so annoying, and heartbreaking and frustrating, you probably have no idea! Because if you did, you wouldn't be how you are. I choose to believe that because I really don't have an option here. If I believe otherwise, well then there's just no meaning to a part of my life that does mean a lot to me. I can't just render those precious moments meaningless just because you decided to turn your back on me. It would help a lot f y...

I've read ample posts that say "We don't live, all we do is exist." Today I know the reason why that happens. We worry too much about others, people in our lives, people we want in our lives and people we miss in our lives. There are moments when we think.. 'This is what I want to do' but our judgement is immediately clouded by thoughts of what others would think if we went ahead and actually did it. I say do it. However silly it seems, however many heads it may turn, if it makes you happy, just do it already! Because the people you're thinking about, trust me, there's a ninety five percent chance they're not thinking about you. And if they are, they won't mind. I've read that if you love someone, let them go. I say if they still don't care, give them a piece of what it feels like. You don't always have to be the bigger person you know. You can't always keep others before yourself. If its killing you inside, let it rip, ...

You go to sleep feeling all gloomy because you wasted another day not studying. But come on, you had fun! That's not a day wasted, that's just a ton of memories made. So you procrastinated for another day. Big deal! Ki farak paenda hai! You could still do it you know, SHINE. :) Stop regretting things, fretting over them because they're not what should have happened. Because, after all, they did happen, and might have also put a smile on your face. Always try to make a fresh start. Wake up, look around, admire all the good that you have in your life, and set out to find the rest of what you want. Never give up on your hopes, your dreams, yourself! You're your only strength you know, so be that as best as you can. People may loose faith in you, sometimes fate might be too harsh on you, but never give up. Never give up because there is still someone who believes in you - YOU! Stop doing things for others, trying to make them happy. Live a little for yourself, do wh...

This trip home has been good, great even. There were some things I wanted to do which I couldn't, but apart from that it was an actual let's say, homecoming. I did do one thing I'm still regretting - went through my old diary. And I'm stuck wondering why didn't I burn or tear the pages of that one like I used to do with almost every diary of mine. Like many others, I have this excitement at the begin writing a new journal every year. This excitement lasts, at max for a month. After a month, there're just random notes and day entries. After around August, I generally lose interest and stop writing. Its an annual routine, and I'm not too proud of it. So enough about my writing habits, this diary I read was about the time I was in Senior School and I always refrain from going back and thinking about that time. Its not that it was too unpleasant, those two years were a bittersweet combination of hell and heaven for me. In those two years I gained and lost ...

Case I : Our nights have grown shorter. We don't talk as much as we used to. We're too busy in our own worlds to even care if we miss each other. We don't reply to each other's messages. When one tries to converse, the other doesn't feel like it. Is it really that hard to take a little time to appreciate what we have? Or is it what we had? Case II : I don't wait for you to come online. You don't have time to listen to my worries any more. We don't talk about our career plans and insecurities together. You don't have time to feel protective of me anymore. Was it really that hard to keep up an innocent friendship? Case III : I looked at you from a distance and recognised your familiar face. I have it etched somewhere in my heart. I can sketch you smiling even when I'm half asleep. Your smile is what kept my world bright. Now I just have to endure the darkness with a sense of defeat. Is it really that hard to speak up your mind, for on...

Hello readers! :) Care to drop in a comment sometime? The number of pageviews, and not knowing 28 out of the 30 people who read the post, creeps me out! Anyway, day before yesterday, I boarded a train to come home. Three-tier AC is still the worst on my list, this experience didn't help much. The congested middle berth and a bunch of talkative, always-up-for-debate elders, who could ask for more, eh? [For people who do not understand sarcasm, right at this moment, I feel like being Leonard and holding up a sign for your 'Sheldon Cooper brain' that says 'SARCASM'] :| Sorry for that one but I'm kind of getting tired of having to explain my jokes every single time. So the journey, right. There was this working lady who sat beside me and had the berth above mine. Being an avid reader, the kind that cannot travel without reading, I had bought a little something to read. Since campus romances are all that you find these days, frustrated I thought of giving up...

From last friendship day to this one, more than just the 'Friendship Day wallpaper' has changed. Learning to NOT live in the past is the best thing your friends can teach you. Celebrating the genuineness of friendship this Friendship Day, you don't have to be together all the time, you and your friends. Just create an assuring impression, which says you're always there for them, if and whenever they need you. Also, don't be disheartened if they don't, because sometimes, friends are only meant to create a few memories and not relive them. You see, at the end of the day, you're grateful to those friends who stuck with you all the while, but not as much as those who first come to your mind when you're sad. Every friend teaches you something worthwhile. Starting from the age when you're toddlers, you learn to play in the mud or pull each others' hair from a few friends, with few you learn to ride a bike, with few you learn to share secrets and ...