Nostalgia Engulfed...

Well, I hope so. I have been chanting this for a long time now but I can never go through with it. And I'm not sure but maybe its because I don't want to. Everyday is another puzzle piece. Not seeing you makes me anxious. Seeing you makes me take an involuntary about turn. By now, I'm an obvious mess. I'm too deep in my own misery yet I can't see that crease on your forehead without getting antsy. There are days I want to block you out of my mind, and then there are other days where I'm tired enough to just give up. Its so annoying, and heartbreaking and frustrating, you probably have no idea! Because if you did, you wouldn't be how you are. I choose to believe that because I really don't have an option here. If I believe otherwise, well then there's just no meaning to a part of my life that does mean a lot to me. I can't just render those precious moments meaningless just because you decided to turn your back on me. It would help a lot f y...